The blogs here are simply spaces designated for members to be able to share about their lives in a manner like a journal. They can ask for advice, report what's been going on, or write just to work out whatever is in their heads. The blogs are more "protected" than other types of threads because the individual who starts a blog thread can have anyone else's posts removed from it if they object to the content for any reason.
Debbie, you haven't done anything wrong. This thread seems to have become a journal for you, more than a thread asking for advice or discussing a general topic, so that is why moving it to the Blogs section seems more appropriate. You can still ask for feedback and advice in a blog thread. If you already have a blog thread here, I can even merge this one with that, if you like.
I thank you. Maybe some of my long post can/should be moved to my blog, but with this post I am asking for help.
Ray and I went to see our therapist again today. Margaret, our therapist, asked me and Ray how our week had been. I told Margaret about me and Scott and about me and Tom and about me and Stewart and Davison, and about Davison spending the night on Wednesday night. I also told Margaret about my daughter and Ray's son visiting me earlier in the day.
What I told Margaret about visiting with my daughter and Ray's son, David, was that I had been having a magical week . . . until my daughter and Ray's son showed up.
My daughter asked me about having Davison spend the night and how it was. I told her that it was magical. My daughter said, "Much better than with Ray, I bet." I told my daughter that sex and being with Davison was just different than with Ray. My daughter responded saying, "Well at least Davison is a man." David, Ray's son, chimed in, "God, I never want to be like my dad. He is such a pussy. Every time I see him I just want to punch him in the mouth."
I was caught off guard.
My daughter told me that she didn't blame me for having all the men I have, and as often as I do. She told me that if Ray was her husband that she would be doing the same thing. David added, "That's why my mom always fucked other guys, because my dad wasn't enough man for her, or any woman for that matter." David told me that he remembered the first time he saw Ray with another man. He said he was disgusted and never had any respect for Ray after that.
David told me that first time he saw Ray with another man that Ray was on his back, legs lifted high in the air and screaming and moaning and crying like a little girl. David said that his mom was down stairs with a lover, and he (David) was supposed to be spending the night at a friend's house. David said that he had come home to get something and the door to the spare bedroom was open, and Ray and his lover were just going at it.
My daughter asked me why I married Ray and I told her that I loved and still love Ray. My daughter brought up that David's cock is three times bigger than Ray's is. I agreed. We have a hot tub and I have seen David naked before. And so has my daughter. My daughter and Ray's son have been off and on lovers for some time now.
David then asked me if I knew that Ray wasn't his biological father. I told him that I knew. David said he was glad that Ray wasn't his biological father. I asked David how he knew and he told me that his mother, Ray's ex, had told him years ago. David told me that his mom, Ray's ex, had told him that early in their marriage that she had trouble getting pregnant and Ray had gotten tested and found out that he was sterile. I told David that I was aware of that fact.
My daughter asked me how often Ray and I have intercourse. I told my daughter that Ray and I make love quite often. My daughter grinned out of the side of her mouth and told me that Ray had told her that he preferred to watch me with other men or massage me instead of have intercourse with me. I told my daughter that was true.
David asked me then if Ray still cross dressed. I told David that Ray hadn't since we'd been together. David asked me if I knew that Ray used to cross dress a lot. I reminded David that the first time I met Ray he was wearing a skirt. David asked me how humiliating I thought it would be to have a dad who cross dressed. I told him I didn't know. David said it was hell.
David told me that he hated seeing his dad wearing panties, and not even showing a bulge. David said that there were too many times when he caught Ray at the computer masturbating to gay or cuckold porn. David then asked me if I knew about Christy. I told David that I knew about her.
Sixteen years ago, Ray and his ex had separated. T had left Ray and Ray moved in with an eighteen year old girl. Christy was the daughter of one of Ray's mom's friends. Christy was not only eighteen, she was 5'7" tall, weighted 115 pounds and had long blonde hair. Ray moved in with Christy, and Christy had the hots for Ray. Christy was eighteen and Ray was thirty-five. Ray was in a good position. Yet, Ray was still Ray.
David told me that when he spent weekends with Ray and Christy that he had a lot of fun because Christy was very energetic, and she was a hottie. David told me that Ray had it made. He was living with a hot eighteen year old who actually liked him. Christy always dressed sexy and Christy had her own place. David told me that he lost a lot of respect for Ray when he stayed over and Ray let Christy have other men.
Ray said that when he stayed the weekends with Ray and Christy that when Christy had guys over that he and Ray would go out and play Frisbee or hacky sack. David told me that he was old enough to know what was going on. And David told me he even asked Ray why he let Christy have other men when she was so hot. David said that Ray would tell him that Christy is hot and deserves the best.
David told me that Ray and T talked to him as if he was an adult. David told me that his mom had told him, when she and Ray were separated, that she never enjoyed sex with Ray, and that Ray was too small for her. T had also told David that neither he or his sister were Ray's, biologically. David told me that because Ray was a cross dresser, and was gay, that he wasn't surprised by anything that his mom told him.
David asked me if it was true that I got gang banged on my honeymoon, after marrying Ray. I told David that was true. David then asked me if it was true that Roy and I had sex just before I walked the isle to marry Ray. I told David that was also true. David told me that he thought so, because I smelled like sex at the wedding.
My daughter stepped in and told David that she thought that me and Roy having sex before I married Ray was only fitting, since I had known Roy for so long, and Roy was my best friend. My daughter asked me if I knew that she and Roy had had sex, more than a few times. I told her that I had suspected it. David asked my daughter how many times she's had sex with Roy, and she told him that she'd had him maybe ten times.
David shook his head and said that my daughter having sex with Roy was better than if she'd had sex with Ray. My daughter broke out in laughter. She told David that she would have to be desperate as hell to have sex with someone like Ray. I told my daughter and David that Ray is a wonderful man, and he is a good provider. David interjected, saying, "Just not in bed."
I told both my daughter and David that I loved Ray. I told them both that Ray may be gay, and he may have a little penis, and he may like wearing girls panties, and he may be girly, but I love him. David asked me if I loved Davison. I told David that I did. David then asked if we were going to have Davison move in with us. I told David that I hoped so. David said, "If Davison does move in with you guys, at least you'll have a man around the house." David then added, "Kind of like when Antonio lived with you."
My daughter said that Antonio was sexy and asked me what Davison was like. I told my daughter that Davison is black,tall, masculine and probably the best lover I have ever had. My daughter asked me if I was still seeing Scott and Tom. I told her that I was. My daughter then asked if Ray and I still had "church" on Sunday mornings, and I told her yes. My daughter told David that she felt that Ray allowing me to be with other men was his way of making up for his inadequacies.
David stood up and told my daughter that Ray is a fag, and that was it. David told my daughter that he had too many times saw Ray looking through the bedroom window, masturbating, when T had other men to the house. David told my daughter that Ray used to work at a gay spa on the weekends, after Ray and T broke up the last time.
David told my daughter that he had invited Ray to a party that he had gone to about nine years ago. It was a pagan/BDSM party. David is heavy into BDSM, and he is a DOM. David told my daughter that at the party there was a room upstairs where people could go and have sex. He had gone to the up stairs room with a couple and the room was dark. He said that he could hear a woman moaning and could almost see this woman with two men.
David said that was normal at those kind of parties, but what he also heard wasn't. David told my daughter that he could also make out two other figures.
He thought it was another couple, but it turned out to be Ray and another man, and Ray was orally pleasing this other man.
(To be continued)
He's not only off his nut, he's also a few fries short of a McDonalds Happy Meal. 
